How to remain unconvinced

It's been a while since I've written here, as my emplyment status has kept me otherwise occupied. I'm working in a band and orchestra store helping out with the rentals of instruments, a distant 25 miles away from home. Consistent emplyment is a good thing, but the fact that it's not a teaching job remains its downside. As a result, I continue to wait for the day when I leave this fairly steady employment so I can resume the inconsistency of substitute teaching. That will make me happier that I am in the present.

I remain unconvinced that anyone in this area wants to hire me, and I guess I can't blame them. I just don't have the answers they are looking to hear, all a result of not having had opportunities to experience situations and formulate a concept of how I would approach them. I'm still frustrated and ready to do whatever I need to do to pursue this career that I am not giving up on. Just a few more months until job fairs start - useless as they are. They will at least give me more chances to practice finding the answers that people want to hear.